After hosting an event, I ate at a Jollibee near my place. Like other events I hosted, I was unable to eat well during the earlier event because of “unfinished business.”
It’s hard to enjoy a complete meal when I’m making sure the succeeding program parts are going to run smoothly.
Traveling back in time, I worked as a dining service crew in Jollibee, Masinag, Antipolo when I was still taking my first course in college, sometime in 1997. Back when I wasn’t well-versed in English yet and was scared that I won’t pass the interview. But thank God I did.
When Jollibee customers would book a party outside our store, I’d be tasked to assist the Smart Assistant who’d host those parties, which meant I had to do additional manual labor.
I had really low self-esteem then so I never really thought that I’d eventually become an events host like what I’m doing now.
Because I was really enjoying working there while studying, I prayed earnestly to God for me to become a regular employee there. But that didn’t happen. And in hindsight, I thank God it did not because I wouldn’t have been able to work in the Call Center industry for 12 years, which honed not only my English but my relational skills too.
If God granted that prayer, I may not be teaching another batch of TESDA Call Center Training for Informatics College, Manila Campus.
If God answered that prayer, I may not have been able to work for an cruise ship which enabled me to travel the world.
If God allowed me to stay there for good, I may not have pursued a complete bachelor’s degree course from which I’ll graduate this May. This was my “unfinished business” which haunted me all those 17 years of working as a corporate slave.
With this reflection after having my late dinner at Jollibee (I typed this on my smartphone), I realized that I really should not complain when God answers my prayers with a “wait” or even a “no,” because He has His own time and way of weaving things together for my good and His glory.
I learned that I don’t have to understand every difficult thing that’s happening in my life because despite all that, He has my best interest in mind.
I learned that my long and hard seasons of being an orphaned working student while pursuing my dreams are all going to turn out well, even if I’m not seeing all the rewards of my labor yet.
I am learning how to truly love God and people…even when it hurts.
I am learning to continue to trust and obey Him because even my best laid plans pale in comparison to His overarching grand scheme of things.